Slowly Rejoining the World

This week I am rejoining the world.

It has been some time since I was able to sit and write. Many long months in fact.. So now that I am on the other side of my mother’s death, I can see that I slipped into depression. Depression lurks around the edges of my life and often masquerades as irritability.

So here is a post to relaunch and rejoin the world.

I wasn’t always sure that I wanted to stay but now I am. (If you want someone to LISTEN try  It’s free and they really do listen.


So my new Rejoining the World Mission is to spend some serious time pondering the question,

What would the Divine do in this situation?

I will be wandering around while my house is rented. (I decided it is time for it to support itself.) And that’s the question I will asking myself as I make my effort to rejoin society.

I don’t have any preconceived ideas of where I will end up. I could end up coming back to rejoin the legal world or i could end up moving somewhere completely different. All doors are open and I am taking the first steps out.

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How to Be Good Enough

I’m not good enough.

I’m unworthy.

I’m not lovable.

Did you find yourself catching your breath when you read those lines?


How many times have you felt those beliefs creeping up on you?

Not being enough seems to be an epidemic in our current society. None of us came from perfect childhoods so everyone has some degree of “not enough” in their beliefs. If we think that thought over and over, it makes a little pathway in our brains.

Since we all think thoughts that we aren’t good enough and since childhood is where much of this stems from, each journey to being enough is unique. There is a common question which all of us can ask to help start the process of feeling good enough.

Are you ready? Here’s the question

How Am I Enough?

Go ahead. Make a list of each and every way that you ARE enough. Stop focusing on lack. Focus on all the ways you are enough. This is a good first step toward becoming good enough.

Are You Acting Like You Are Good Enough?

One excellent indicator is the level of your self-care. So how have you been treating yourself? Like the King or Queen you are? Like a child of God? Or have you been treating yourself like you aren’t good enough?

If you just realized that you have been treating yourself like crap, don’t despair. Start being nicer to yourself. You are enough just as you are right here and now.  Release habits and patterns that limit you from feeling good enough. Take good care of your precious self.

If you would like to learn more about how to be enough, I invite you to watch this video with Teal Swan.

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Be Yourself – Not So Simple Right?

The answer to the question that’s been looking for you your whole life:

Just Be Yourself.


But what does that meanbe yourself.

We are good it just being yourself when we’re young and again when we’re old. It’s the middle years that get so confused and you lose yourself.

How do you be yourself after you’ve become so self conscious? 

I believe that’s why so many couples get divorced around age 40 – the confused middle years. You lose who you are so it becomes impossible to stay part of a coupleship. You leave because you “Need to be yourself.”

If you could become the woman of your Dreams

Who Would You Be on Your Best Day Ever?

What if everything you learned so far is wrong?

What values do you truly hold? Have you taken a look at what you believe?

What if everything is happening for your benefit, even when it doesn’t look like your version of “good” when it’s happening?

Be yourself….so simple and complex. Take some time to reflect on who you are and what you really believe. Once you are clear on what you believe it becomes more simple to be yourself. You have a measure by which to discern your actions. You can ask yourself whether an action advances your values and beliefs or doesn’t. If not, move on and spend your energy in alignment with yourself and you will become even more yourself.

Try it. Let me know.

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Ashley Madison Hack Exposes Our Sexual Shame

Shame, let alone sexual shame, is a topic that does not get much discussion but I’ve been thinking about shame often these days as I review what’s working and what’s next in my life. “Shame on you for doing coupleformxyz,” is something most of us hear from our parents. Most of the topic of shame seems to revolve around sexual shame once you get to adulthood. But what is shame and why wish it on someone?

Shame is not an emotion. To me, shame – especially sexual shame, is a social control mechanism. Usually it is applied to girls and women, but it is not an exclusive feminine domain. Sexual shame is dictated by society based on judgments about “good vs bad” and “wrong vs right.” That’s probably why is it so often applied to women. It’s been an effective social control device for most of our history. Our sexual shame is a learned behavior.

Sexual Shame and Ashley Madison

Now the Ashley Madison hack has exposed hundred of thousands of married people willing to cheat on their spouses. Only three tiny towns in the U.S. were immune from the allure of Ashley Madison. Yet, when names became public, sexual shame rose up like a giant nuclear mushroom cloud. Tearful television confessions, even suicides, have followed in the wake of the hack of the website Ashley Madison. And it all stems from our shame about our bodies and sex. Such a sad commentary on our society.

With all the high-def televisions and the emphasis that our culture places on youth, most middle age women have convinced themselves that they are not beautiful or sexy or worthy of being adored. The amount of body shame is enormous. We cannot believe that anyone would desire us now that ____ (fill in the blank – scars, flab, moles, impotence, wrinkles). Again, body shame is not the exclusive province of women. Men are concerned about impotence as well as the amount of hair and where it is, their skinny legs or whatever.

So we flaunt sexual images to sell products and services, but we can’t talk to partners about what we like, our limitations, or our body shame. Instead we open accounts seeking anonymous physical intimacy and when our desires are exposed we cry and even kill ourselves. There is something very wrong with us.

So let’s start healing this sexual shame. Let it begin with you. Have an honest dialogue with your partner. Look in the mirror and see how beautiful you are. When shame, especially sexual shame, comes up, take a look at it. Where’s it coming from? Do you really believe its underlying premise? Examine it and discard the crap that is no longer true for you. In the same way that Louise Hay believes that healing your emotions can heal your body, radical honesty can heal our sexual shame.



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The Artist’s Way Book

So much time has flown by without an update. I wanted you to know about The Artist’s Way book and art club, since that has occupied my time.

The Joyful Artist Studio has been officially closed since November. I’ve not found a new home for it (or me) yet.  At this time, it’s an Artist’s Way book club. We will begin again on September 1st. If you’re interested in joining an Artist’s Way book club group and live around Lake Worth, check it out.

If you don’t know about the Artist’s Way book, it’s a classic by Julia Cameron. The Artist’s Way book spurs you to examine your beliefs, how you treat yourself and your art, and helps you catapult your creativity in a supportive environment with other creatives.

The thing that tends to happen, like any book, we start out with good intentions. Along about week seven or eight, something else takes precedence and BOOM, we fall off the beam and many never return to finish the Artist’s Way book. The book club gives you some accountability. The simple art and craft projects help you get back in the flow.

Artist’s Way Book Club Facebook Group

Not only do you have the support of other creatives at the weekly meetings, you also get to join a secret Facebook group of others who have completed the Artist’s Way book and art club. The group provides ongoing inspiration and just keeps growing and getting better with each round of the Artist’s Way book club.

You also get invited to a monthly playdate with all the alums of the club. It’s a time to check in, hold yourself accountable and have some fun with us. 😊

So if you’re stuck in rut, feeling like you lost your groove, come discover how the Artist’s Way book and art club can get you back in the flow of creativity and life.

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First Quarter

Wow did we already finish the first quarter of 2014? Where is the time going? I just realized that I hadn’t been here in awhile so I stopped by and was surprised to see the New Year’s Questions still up on the site with a new year post. Oh well, good intentions gone awry.

Mom placed on Hospice last month so her condition is deteriorating or accelerating, depending on your perspective. She got a Booda chair so she can be positioned to stay upright as she fades out. Planning to see her next week in person, after a three month hiatus.

If you haven’t seen it, please check out my new art studio website Joyful Artist Studio and Creative Lab. If you are local, come by and play with us!

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New Year, New Beginning, New You?

So much hoopla over the new year beginning this week! The debate over goals versus intentions versus themes. I don’t know about you, but it has been an exhausting holiday season for me and I did not follow through with some of my usual traditions this year. Perhaps that’s why I feel a little off kilter. Or maybe it’s just that they keep sticking holidays in the middle of the week this year!

Whichever perspective you choose, if you want to the choose the best you for the year, I highly recommend engaging in some sort of ritual or tradition around the new year. This year the new year and the new moon correspond so the frequency is very high around change. My favorite year-end ritual is to journal on a list of questions about the year. If you’d like a copy of the questions, enter your name and email address over in the right column and I’ll send them right over to your inbox.

Don’t worry. I don’t send a bunch of emails. I’m not very regular with the emails at all. I don’t view this a broken so I’m not going to fix it this year 😉

New Year Suggestions

If you are looking for inspiring emails that come with more regularity, I would suggest hopping over to Joyful Artist Studio & Creative Lab and getting on that list. At this moment, I am uploading a new series on upleveling your creativity over there.

On the other hand, maybe you want to start healthy eating this year. It made a huge difference in my life when I got allergy testing and eliminated some foods (wheat, sugar, corn) from my diet. You don’t have to have expensive testing, you can do this yourself if you are committed to feeling better.  The email series on the Start Healthy Eating site walk you through how to clean up your food choices.

And if you are looking at ending your marriage this year, I still offer limited representation for Florida divorce cases. Check it out at or



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Jumping Off the Cliff – and Into Life Purpose

It’s been a while since I started seriously searching out my life purpose. Suzanne Falter and Jeffry Van Dyck introduced me to the idea of having a Life Mission and it resonated with me deeply. I know not everyone is motivated to seek out this kind of info. But I am. It’s the way I was built.jump-off-cliff

I came to this unexpectedly when I traveled to Austin to an event hosted by Suzanne and met many of my online pals there, including Amethyst Wyldfire and Sharon Martinelli, who turns out, lives near me. It was a wildly synchronistic weekend. We did an exercise and I got a ton of info about the people I was supposed to work with but no clue as to what or how I was supposed to do it. It was frustrating.

True Purpose Training

So I thought perhaps I was meant to help others find their purpose so I trained in the True Purpose method with Tim Kelly and Jeffrey. Again, I was able to access a boatload of information but no hows or whats. That was at the end of 2010.

In early 2011 I said “yes” when I meant “no.”

When my gut said “no.”

When my heart said “no.”

Maybe it was fear. Yeah, it was fear. And so I defaulted to old behavior and basically put Continue reading

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Intuitive Painting: Let Go of Judgment

For my birthday I went to an Intuitive Painting Workshop. I love the community that Nadine has built around her studio, the Artful Dreamer. I love the process of creating and it has been fun attending workshops and circles and other events over the past year.

If you’ve never heard of it, here’s how Nadine describes it

Intuitive Painting is about paying attention to your experience (your process) while you paint from your HEART instead of focusing on the painting (the product).

You get to use paint to:
play with your inner child,tame your inner critic, listen to your intuition, & express without words

We begin with meditation, movement, painting with your heart…

It has been a year of cracking things open so I figured, on my birthday,  Intuitive Painting, why not? I could use a break from that inner critic. she can be a real talkaholic sometimes.

Judgment & Criticism

It was liberating to shut my inner critic off and just play for the day. It was also a little scary stepping into the uncertainty and out of judgment. Lately I’ve been examining all the judgment I have, especially what I heap on myself. Looking at these various judgments that I’ve made, I’ve come to realize that a great deal of them came from others. I just adopted them without actually determining if they were something I believed.

Most of us grew up with thee sort of unconscious judgments getting implanted. Try the following money judgments. Maybe you have them too:

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Staying Cool When the AC is Out

Let me just begin with a confession: I like cool – I get grumpy when I’m hot. This summer has been hot hot hot in South Florida and twice my air conditioner has died. It’s under Fruit on Displaywarranty, but it has still made for some super-hot days waiting for the repair.

My house is older and was built before AC was around, and it had features like a whole house fan (removed before I got here), cool quarry tile floors and trees planted around the south and west sides. Luckily I have ceiling fans in most of the rooms. Of course, this is all well and good but it still gets REALLY hot when its 92 outside.

I looked around for some tips to stay cool when the AC is out. Here are my favorite ones:

  • Close south and west-facing curtains or blinds during the day for any window that gets direct sunlight.
  • Take a (lukewarm) shower but don’t dry off totally, then sit by a fan. You can also use a cold compress on your neck if a shower isn’t feasible.
  • Drink up! Hydration moves blood to the surface more efficiently, and allows you Continue reading
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